Wednesday's always the most tired day of a week. I have so much hope to Thursday, Friday and weekend but it seems still too far to get rest.
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I didn't like today because I received a piece of bad news from weibo just now. My idol, Taemin, will be on the TV program "WE GOT MARRIED" with Son Na Eun, which is a member of A-pink (A new korean pop group but not so popular as I expect.) From the program's name, you can find that it's about idols' imagined couples and how they work together like real couples. Because of "Khuntoria" and some couples before, this program became famous in Korea, but after that, "WE GOT MARRIED" got worse and worse, even it might be stopped broadcasting. Therefore, I think workers that are behind this program just want to use my idol's popularity as a tool to increase "WE GOT MARRIED"'s popularity and make it work again.
I can't accept that not only because he's my first Korean male idol. The most important reason is that he's born in 1993. That means, he's just 20!!! Although he's already been an adult in Korea, he's still too young to attend this program.
After watching some photos of what they did for getting in an imagined couple, I even felt a little depressed about that. Yes, I'm a little jealous now. But what I have to do is just studying now, because I know fans can't influence the decision what the entertainment company made, or fans just hurt themselves. And we have our own life, all I do is just for learning at school, though he's my idol.
Hot weather with tired body.
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It's hard to express what I wanna say now because I'm so tired that even can fall asleep right now. However, for some important issues I haven't solved, I have to solve them and then go to bed.
Well, perhaps I'm tired because of the hot weather with blowing winds. Sometimes while winds is blowing to me, and I just become tired without any reason. That's strange but it's true. Another strange situation is that I may get headache when the sunshines are too strong. Because strong sunshine will cause me dizzy and the same feeling as having a fever. Now it's common to me and I get used to have these feelings that may be different from others.
It's reasonable for me to stay tired every day actually. I stay up late almost every night except for a few weeks before. Yes, I know the risks of staying up at night but I can't control myself well. It's all because of characteristics of perfectionists - worry too much. Therefore, If there's the same amount of work to face, I'll be much slower than others because I always think I'm not right. That's the biggest problem that I need to solve.
Just solving the worried problem, everything will be fine.
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It's sunny and warm today, but I could't go out until evening because my mom need sleep in the afternoon and she'd like to take me outside after dinner. That made me a little upset. Well, that's all right because I had at least a chance to go outside and breath the air in the natural world, but not undergoing my house's cleaning-air system. Another reason that explains I want to go outside my home is that I don't want to do any sports and I'd like to be slim without working really hard, and one way that's satisfied my both requests is to go shopping! The only one who wants to go shopping with me is my dear mom. Then no others.
It's hard to explain my feeling now because it's the mixture of happiness and sadness. What I feel excited is that I decide to go to the aft exhibition tomorrow and maybe I'll have a lot of fun there. Otherwise, sadness is that I've only finished 2 pages of my group's comix and Mallory has told me she wouldn't hang out with me next week and that means I'll be alone with my friend Crystal next weekend. And that's a bad message to me, though we are primary school classmates, we haven't got enough common interests together so sometimes we don't even know how to begin a conversation. However, I've decided I'll still hang out with Crystal next week.
That's all about my weird weekend but perhaps it sounds not so weird as you expect.
Thanks to god, today's Friday and finally I can sleep much more time than weekdays. I was too tired to do anything in a whole week, and my mood was bad enough to stay upset for five days.
This lucky day is my idol Oh Sehun's birthday (0412), so now you can feel my happiness through these words beyond. YEAH! WEEKEND IS COMING!
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At first, I wasn't happy even though it's a sunny day, Friday and Sehun's birthday because of my worry of Chinese mid-term test. I'm always good at Chinese before and I admit doing well in Chinese tests but sometimes good grades make me more stressful because I must keep this grade and I can't give up doing that.
From the 2st grade in primary school, my teachers and classmates always thought I couldn't get low grades on Chinese, or they would use strange sight to watch me and parents would criticize me. The process began from primary school to nowadays, people around me still think that's true. Even I left middle school, and as I met my middle school Chinese teacher, he would say that I didn't need to care too much about my Chinese grade, because I could do well.
But this time I was really worried, until Ms Li announced my grade. And that grade was what I expected and I'm happy about that grade now.
After getting Chinese test grade, because I stopped being upset any more and I began focusing on my idol's birthday. I saw an awesome fan-made video about Sehun on Youtube and that made me excited now!!! I can feel my strong heart- beating and I'm repeating the background music of that video in my iPod. Therefore, you'll notice this journal is not as organized as other journals that I've written before.
Anyway, I know it's late now, so have a nice weekend as me, guys! ❤
Ha, my naughty Amber at left. ←
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You can clearly see why I called my idol "naughty", cause she did know what the sign "DO NOT CLIMB OR THROW OBJECTS OVER FENCE", but she pretended she didn't know and she's trying to climb it just beside the sign. The contrast between her action and the warning sign seemed funny. I know, she just wanna play a joke, but in real life, or if it's true, it's not joking and even it's pretty dangerous to do that.
The topic "Keep going correctly" means just doing what you think or the public think is correct, don't need to care about pressure from people around you. Keep doing, then you'll find it's true, and at this time you have no regret for what you've worked hard. You may think it's easy, but sometimes not everyone can achieve it authentically. Usually we've got too much things to care about, like family, friends, or other relationships. It's hard to keep yourself calm from these people's influences. Well, I'm an example of caring too much about others around me, and it causes me never have my own opinions or creativity.
I want to get rid of people around me's influences and shadings, and I just would like to keep doing correctly by myself.
As you see, I'm stressful and have anxiety now.
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I had dinner with my mum together because my dad had to go to another city for business again. Without dad, my home seemed have less warmness. My mum and I had the same characteristic actually, we didn't want to talk too much and usually we were quiet at home. It doesn't mean our relationship's not so hard. After eating, she watched newspaper on her seat in front of me and for a while she put down her newspaper and looked at me. I guessed she wanted to say something. But she said something unexpected :"It's time for mid-term test, right? So how about your grade?" " Fine." I just didn't want her worry too much, "And today was my Chinese test." " Well, how do you feel about that Chinese test?" She asked immediately. " Hmmm……I don't know." I replied with careful thinking. " How can't you know that?" She seemed not very happy to me and turned back to read her newspaper, and I went on having my dinner.
Yes, this is a normal conversation between my mum and me. She has a high expect to me and I really care about my success or failure, so sometimes I may get hurt in my mind for this reason. Both of my mum and I will be disappointed if I get a bad grade. Today, I'm still worrying about my test. Therefore, I stay upset and I don't know where it ends.
I'm back from Hong Kong!
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It's hard for me to start doing homework tomorrow for a whole day because the day after tomorrow will be Monday, the beginning of a normal week. See what time it is, nearly twelve forty-five but I still sat in front of my laptop and typed this journal.
(I just mean, I have to save time to finish it when the quality can be proved.)
I've just came back from Hong Kong for several hours. I reached home about ten and packed my bag or did something necessary for almost two hours. Until now, I can sit in my arm chair and started my homework. However, my brain is still full of information of H7N9.
I even don't want to drink water at home because the drinking water in my home is came from Huangpu River and it just filters from tap water. I can't make sure if it's safe enough for drink, and my dad said that we'd better send some water from my home to professional detection organizations to prove that. My mum suggested that we could boil water before we wanted to drink it but it sounds difficult to do that because it cost too much time to boil water until the temperature is beyond 100°C. Although it's true that every kind of virus will be killed (evaporated) at 100°C, we still don't really want to do that.
As a normal citizen and student, I don't want to care about our country's security too much because I've already had much pressure from school or other places and I'll be very tired for solving problems from life. I want to trust our food, our water, but you can see how serious the issue is. The government should be responsible for every citizen's safety and I hope several serious series of laws or punishments will be published soon for those who do not obey the food safety laws or other solving methods. Everyone wants their country better and better, includes me.
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I went to HSBC Olympian City Branch with my mum because of her business and it's our main reason why we came to Hong Kong. I saw a slim boy and one of his legs was covered with tattoos. Around these tattoos, I noticed that the skin turned red and that meant they're new. I thought these tattoos are not so matched with him. To my mind, only one little tattoo about a favorite design is enough. Too many tattoos aren't quite cool.
The paragraph beyond seems a digression. Well, I have to come back to my topic. This is the second day of my journey in Hong Kong, and also the last whole day because I'll come back to Shanghai tomorrow. At first we would come back the day after tomorrow but because of my dad's passport problem, my mum and I didn't want to stay too many days without my dad. Today we trust the truth: Hong Kong is shopping paradise. As we went to either Harbor City or Olympian City, or even other shopping malls, they are always filled with people. Like some world-famous toggeries, LV, CHANNEL, PRADA, people queued up orderly but we wasted some time to wait for it.
Most of people in Hong Kong began working today. Therefore, the underground stations started being crowded. Air pollution became serious today. While my mum woke up, she was surprised that the sky was dark like mid-night.
It's raining heavily now and I can hear scary thunder outside. Hope tomorrow will be fine.
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I went to Hong Kong today but I has been disappointed and upset. While we - my parents and me waited for the lady who worked in the airport and helped getting seats on an plane or consigning luggage, she was telling us that my dad couldn't go because his passport past due of going to Hong Kong or Macao. My mum was shocked and even couldn't consider if we could go without my dad. And see, we still went to Hong Kong at last because my mum had some important issuers to deal with.
It's not so hot in Hong Kong but everyone wore different clothes. Some wore T-shirts and shorts, and others wore sweaters and jeans. I even could see someone wore like in winter. Without thinking, my mum and I went shopping after checking-in the hotel. People wore fashionable clothes was common in the street so that others could feel Hong Kong was a pretty modern city.
(P.S: Everyone in Hong Kong, whatever he or she is a foreigner or indigene, stands on the right side while they're taking an escalator. This is a silent education for all the people which do not have this habit. I don't want to say much about it because maybe they consider it as a daily action.)
← My new goddess. (Although I haven't forgotten Krystal and I'll love her as much as I can.) [Pic cr logo] Just for attraction.
Today is quite near Qingming festival holiday. It's like spring break in US but we've got more traditional activities to do on the holiday. Nowadays, most of us don't usually do these things. During holidays, we just sleep all day or hang out with friends.
Because I think we are close to holiday, I has become excited and active since the beginning of Monday. (Yes, Mallory found my change.) The day after tomorrow, I'll go to HONG KONG with my parents and go for shopping and eating!!! I really missed HONG KONG, its night views, its cheaper price of clothes/cosmetics or some other products, its food, everything about HONG KONG is appreciated by me. In general, HONG KONG is my second love among all of cities. (Shanghai is certainly the best one.)
Now that it's near holiday, do we have to pay attention on our study? Yes, we do have to! Before holidays, we have two tests to pass through and a performance for talent show. It's necessary and reasonable that we have to work hard at school first then go to play. My mum had said that I could play whatever I wanted unless I finished my work well. She did a good job on keeping balance between playing and working so that she could enjoy more than other people who always play and don't want any work. She's a model that I can follow her.
Work hard, and have fun! Enjoy your holiday later!